im afraid

last year.. i think its around august.. i went for badminton as usual during that time..
there was once i nearly fainted.. i played with my fren den sudd i felt that everything i saw was upside down and my heart beats super fast.. i stil tot it is because i did not eat before badminton..thus, i ignored it. who knows i jus a sudden i reli felt so suffering and pain. i told my fren i need to stop the game.. they said my face was as pale as a white paper.. =.=

after that incident, i owes felt that my heart beats very fast and i felt the ache.. there was once in my math class, i felt tis way too. so i went out of my classroom to have a deep breath. i felt better after that..

not only that,my hands were always shaky aft that incident.. my fren scolded me not to think so much. but not tat i think about it.. the truth is my hands are shaking!!! damnit..

today, i felt in this way again.. tis morning i woke up, try to boil the water in kettle. then, i started to see everything very blur. i took a rest.. now, im typing tis post with shaky hands and my hands are numb.

i owes wanted to go for blood testing. but owes no time.. so i delayed it till now. f3.. actually im afraid to know the results too..

wad if i have wad sickness? arghhhhhhhhhhhh.. wad should i do? my parents did bring to clinic.. doc said that im stress so tats y... the other doc said it was muscle pain. fine.. as if it is muscle pain, now i din do any heavy exercises, so what cause that? in addition, i dun have any exams how would i feel stress??

i knew i should have go for the blood test..i knew i knew.. but.. >.<